Last night I ended up having this huge conversation with Grant. It started with me bitching about how teenagers take everything so badly, and think that the world is coming to an end every time something bad happened. He just said that every teenager does the same thing; he did when his ex broke up with him, and I took it even a step further when Steven broke up with me.
Then we drifted topics and started talking about Steven, and how he used to have cancer, and how I was reacting to that. I had never told him myself that my ex boyfriend had cancer and was getting treatments practically the entire time we were together, so it was a topic that was bound to come up sooner or later. I don't know why, but it was just weird talking to him about it.
Grant was acting like a total sweetheart, and I just thought, [i]what did I do to deserve him[/i]? I actually came right out and said that he was too good for me, but then immideately apologized for absolutly everything I had said in our conversation. I mean, he didn't need to hear me bitch... And, just when I thought he couldn't get any [i]more[/i] sweet, he said:
"[i]See, I feel like I should be appologising for something I said. And maybe I should appologise for what I'm about to say... But when I look at this, from as much of an outside perspective as I can, I see us, both trying to cling on to each other, afraid of losing the other, even though we both feel the same way. Atleast... I really, really hope that you feel the same way about me that I do about you[/i]."
I started to cry. I don't think he has any idea just how strongly I feel about him. I want to tell him, but I don't know if it'll come off as too weird, seeing as we've only been together for about 2 weeks now. I'll let things be for now; time will help me.
Hm... As for this morning, I don't remember it at all. It was like, I woke up, and I was at school. *shrugs* I guess it was because I only got about 4 hours of sleep last night. Whatever.
In home room / Ancient Civs, we were talking about whether or not it was okay to torture people. Mr.VanDusen started reading out different torture devices and explaining what they did in great detail. It was really bad! There was this one torture device that was basically a giant frying pan that they used in ancient Rome to fry Christians. I was just like "Wow... That's not cool!" As I, like, threw up in a bucket. lol.
I talked to Mal and Jade about the Insight show tomorrow, and they both want to go - I think Kelsey and Steven are planning on going, too, but I don't know how they're all gonna get there. Hell, I don't even know how [i]I'm[/i] going to get there. Grant [i]should[/i] be going, but he may have other things he has to do. That would really suck if he couldn't go!
Math was so boring - we just learned how to exchange money. Oy. Surprise surprise, he was teaching us something we [i]already[/i] knew! Who would have guessed? Anyways, he assigned 3 pages of work and said "Do whichever questions you want, and however many questions you want - just make sure you go over it enough times to make sure you know it." I didn't have any thing else to do, so I did the first 5 questions (each question went from a - g, each letter with a part i and ii. That's quite a bit of work I did!).
During lunch I went into the Drama room and watched my friends reherse the Time Warp for Air Bands. I noticed something really funny but incredibly mean, but I'm not going to write about it in here just incase he or she comes across it. Gavin continued to try and organize the movie thing for Friday night - I told him I'd be able to go, even though I haven't even talked to my parents about it yet. Oh well, they [i]should[/i] let me go, it's not a school night afterall.
Photography was a lot of fun today. Ryan decided to use me and Greg for his models for his project; he chose sadness. I think I mentioned this before. But anyways, we had just "broken up", so we were supposed to be next to tears kind of thing, right? We were [i]so[/i] hyper, we'd burst out laughing every 2 seconds! Ryan started to get really fed up with us, but we were having so much fun! Greg would jump behind the camera and make faces at me when I was posing, omg, it was sooo hard to keep a straight face! Ryan actually got a picture of me laughing my ass off by accident! XD! To finish off the roll, he took a picture of me carrying Greg like a baby, and one of me giving him a piggy-back ride.
It was so unbelievable that Greg and I would ever be dating, too, because... He's Greg! He's short(ish) and skinny, and I'm tall and not-as-skinny - it would just [i]look[/i] wrong if we were together. lol!
Afterwards, Erica brought out this hair-gel stuff, and Greg and Chris messed around with their hair. Greg looked like the bride of Frankenstein - his hair was standing on end, like he was just shocked. Chris's hair didn't work at all, and he had to wash it out. Aw. lol!
Photography ended, and I had my Bio / Spare. I sat in the basement with Chris for a while, then Jade and that girl I can't seem to remember the name of right now came. We sat and talked about nothing for a little while, then we decided we'd try to pick the lock of the tunnels and walk through them. I had never been in the tunnels before, so I was all hyped up about it. Unfortunately, Chris's army knife wasn't a good enough pick, and we couldn't get in. Jade said she'd bring in something better tomorrow to get the lock open for our spare right after lunch XD Should be fun!
Careers last today *boo*hiss*. We took more notes, and then we had to divide ourselves into our neighbourhood group-thingies. I got to talk to Sairha and Gabby about hair dye and stuff, so that was fun. We also bitched about Steven skipping classes and the posiblility of him getting expelled because of it. Everyone had a bit to add to the conversation about what was bugging them about Steven, so I was glad to realise that I'm not the only one who has issues with him.
I hung around in the Drama room some more after school was over, and just did nothing, talking and bugging random people while they waited for everyone to get to the rehersal. Once nearly everyone was there, I left to go outside and wait for Grant. Katie went with me, and she'd come and go.
We went to his mom's house and watched "Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels" - good movie. I loved the accents in it! Hehehe! Ah, that's just because British accents amuse me to no end. There was a sign in the movie, "Sex Shop" - I laughed each time they showed it. I knew it [i]meant[/i] Strip Club, but... Ya, you know what I was thinking. lol! XP After the movie was over we watched the Simpsons, that 70's Show, then some random comedy, and finally headed off to his dad's down the road.
We often tease each other about anything possible, so I was teasing him about one thing and he just started talking about how he couldn't get me back for it. So I told him to pick any one of my many deformalities to make fun of, and he just looked up and down me and said "I'm having trouble finding one.". ...I dunno, I just found that really sweet. lol!
Gaah! He's much too good to be true... Someone pinch me! *faints*
About Me:
Name: Sarah
DOB: Dec.01,'87 (16)
Location: Ottawa, ON
Likes: music, The Simpsons, That 70's Show, Stephen King, Tim Burton, horror movies, comedy, playing video / computer games, Monty Python, mexican food, iced tea, drawing, shopping, hanging out, swimming (alone), photography, acting, driving, and my friends and family ^^
Dislikes: assholes, whores, rap, musicals, when things break, liars, people who judge others before they get to know them, killing animals for food, working too hard... (thats all I can think of right now)
