Today I was supposed to go to an arcade with Grant, Becky and Dan - but Dan's sick. Blarg. So they bailed. Whatever. They said they'd be able to next weekend (I hope), so s'all good.
Jade and I were trying to put together plans for tomorrow to go down to Rideau with some friends. That'd be cool, but I don't know how possible it'll be. We shall see. We'll talk about it more tomorrow, I'm sure. Last time we went to Rideau I had so much fun (that is, until Erica and Steven came), so I've been wanting to do it again for a while now. I hope it works out. XP
Instead of doing something fancy, which costs money, we decided to just go to Grant's house (by "we" I mean he and I). We played Soul Calibur II again, and I let him win because I didn't really feel like playing much. *shrugs*. Then a bit of Harvest Moon (I love that game!). I had brought What Lies Beneath, so we watched that, then the Smashing Pumpkin's DVD. We had to go on a little walk to get it, though, because it was at his mom's house (she only lives down the street). I got to meet two of his uncles, who were visiting from Calgary and Vancouver, which was pretty cool.
We were talking in the car when he was dropping me off at home, and there were similarities between us which are quite terrifying. Grant first kissed his last ex on Hallowe'en night. Steven first kissed me on Hallowe'en night. They started going out January 27th. Okay, this is where it gets really messed up. Steven and I started going out January 9th. Grant asked me out on April 27th. (Also, my sister's birthday is January 27th, btw). I was just like "holy mind-fuck!". Then I was just randomly talking and I mentioned I was cleaning my room today. Ya, he was cleaning his room, too. Freakish. Then I got him to write down his phone numbers (mom's house, dad's house) for my mom and I looked at the sheet and I was like "...We both write our 'd's the same way." His face was priceless!
"Did you not take [i]anything[/i] from Chasing Amy? It's not the persons past that matters - yes, granted, it's part of them - but the important thing to me, is that right now, you want to be with me, and I want to be with you. So any past doesn't matter." Sorry, I just wanted to have that written down so I could come back to it whenever I'm feeling bad about what I've done before.
For some fucked up reason, I got it in my head that I'm too happy. And, because I'm "too happy", I felt like I needed to punish myself. I'm not used to being happy all the time, I suppose that's why my headaches are more frequent as of late. Anyways, I took a pair of scissors and kind of... stabbed my arm. It's very small, but it bled a bit. Whatever. Yes, I realise I'm an idiot for hurting myself because I'm [i]too[/i] happy. I just kind of got the feeling that I needed a reason to cry, but I had none, so I wanted to give myself one... It didn't work, so in the end it was completely pointless anyways.
Another short blog - oh well.
posted by: Shark99 (reply)
post date: 05.01.04 (9:09 pm)
Happiness is the mind killer LOL
posted by: juicebox (reply)
post date: 05.02.04 (9:12 am)
i love you sarah!!!!
<3
About Me:
Name: Sarah
DOB: Dec.01,'87 (16)
Location: Ottawa, ON
Likes: music, The Simpsons, That 70's Show, Stephen King, Tim Burton, horror movies, comedy, playing video / computer games, Monty Python, mexican food, iced tea, drawing, shopping, hanging out, swimming (alone), photography, acting, driving, and my friends and family ^^
Dislikes: assholes, whores, rap, musicals, when things break, liars, people who judge others before they get to know them, killing animals for food, working too hard... (thats all I can think of right now)
